I’ve noticed that many people lately live fearful lives.
There seem to be many causes for this:
- The economy: which leaves financial security and career opportunities unknown
- Nature: which leaves the question of the entire earth surviving into the future unknown
- An aging society: which leaves us open to more unknown diseases and health issues
- Overwhelming possibilities: which makes more people feel like something is wrong when their path to “success” is unknown
- Loss of community: which makes people feel alone in the unknown.
Does anyone see the common word here? It is the unknown.
Many of my friends have been feeling this fear lately. Either in person or on Facebook, or even in the blogosphere, people are becoming overwhelmed by the unknown, as I was reminded reading A. Hab’s post yesterday.
I am no exception, but I don’t want to live in fear anymore.
I have been living with the unknown for several years now. Actually, I think it has been longer than that. I entered the unknown when I graduated with a Ph.D and then had no idea what I really wanted to do with my life. I’d achieved many dreams, but didn’t have any new clear dreams or goals. I moved further into the unknown when my husband, through the politics of academia, was not given tenure in his position–just as the economy crashed. So we moved blindly forward hoping to find a place to land safely and call home.
We landed on our feet, but we still live in the unknown because this does not feel like home. I am beginning to discover new dreams, but that becomes harder because I am now fully ensconced in early Middle Age. For some reason it feels harder to dream big when you have to support a family and compete against people half your age. But shouldn’t experience be more valuable than youth? You would think so.
Everyday I wake up into the unknown.
Today I woke up without a clue what to write about, and almost a fear of facing this blog. Today I woke up without a plan, without a goal, without a known.
But, as I write this, I know that’s okay. I have survived the unknown, and I will continue to survive the unknown.
That’s the only thing I really know. And I think that has to be enough.
Would anyone care to join me on an exciting adventure into the unknown? I promise you, it will be exciting and take us to places we could never imagine.
And, to reveal my inner Gleek–Rachel’s song from yesterdays show really goes along with how I’m feeling today: