Not in the, “Mommy pay attention to me” way. Not in the, “I miss you, can you help me” way.
No, I want the world to revolve around me in the “I respect that you are an individual person” way.
I want to turn off the schedule that is in my brain. The one that keeps everyone on track. I want to forget who needs what when where why and how.
I want to sleep uninterrupted by creatures (human and canine) looking for safety from a storm. I want to wake up when my body is fully rested, not because dreams and concerns haunt me.
I want one day where I don’t have to pick someone up or take someone somewhere. I want one day where I can immerse myself in my own projects regardless of time and obligations. I want to not worry about the food I put in my mouth, or the fact that there is no food, or the house needs cleaning, or laundry needs to be done, or papers need to be graded. I want one day where time has no meaning.
I want to be selfish.
But maybe that is a selfish thing to want.