For just one day, or maybe two, I want the world to revolve around me.
Not in the, “Mommy pay attention to me” way. Not in the, “I miss you, can you help me” way.
No, I want the world to revolve around me in the “I respect that you are an individual person” way.
I want to turn off the schedule that is in my brain. The one that keeps everyone on track. I want to forget who needs what when where why and how.
I want to sleep uninterrupted by creatures (human and canine) looking for safety from a storm. I want to wake up when my body is fully rested, not because dreams and concerns haunt me.
I want one day where I don’t have to pick someone up or take someone somewhere. I want one day where I can immerse myself in my own projects regardless of time and obligations. I want to not worry about the food I put in my mouth, or the fact that there is no food, or the house needs cleaning, or laundry needs to be done, or papers need to be graded. I want one day where time has no meaning.
I want to be selfish.
But maybe that is a selfish thing to want.
Apr 23, 2011 @ 12:26:08
You go, girl!
“It is not selfish to do what we want to do . . . it is selfish of others to expect us to do what THEY want us to do.”
When we change the way we view the world, we realize that we should only feel guilty if we are not as happy as we can possibly be in any given moment.
Why do we put off living the way we want to live, as if we have all the time in the world? ~ Barbara de Angelis
Apr 23, 2011 @ 12:34:45
Thank you for the perfect quotes.
Apr 23, 2011 @ 15:27:37
I’m at a point where doing all I do for others, only gets done with resentment. It’s not a good place to be. I totally understand. I’d rather be doing the things I do with joy.
Apr 23, 2011 @ 16:28:38
No, that’s not good. I think we both need some time off.
Apr 23, 2011 @ 16:56:40
And why not? Consider your needs at least on the same level as your daughter’s, your husband’s, your pets’. Would you refuse them if they said to you, “I need more of your attention”? I’m guessing from the post, you wouldn’t. So, why not prioritize yourself at least as much as you prioritize them? You’re worth it!
Apr 23, 2011 @ 18:27:01
I think you need to practice what you preach.
LOL
Apr 24, 2011 @ 08:33:36
Haha, touche!
Apr 23, 2011 @ 19:10:03
I think it’s a matter of wording. You could as easily substitute living in the present or being happy or being an inspiration for others for the word selfish. Or maybe even self-realization.
Apr 26, 2011 @ 02:21:45
A thought-provoking post. All about healthy egoism. Well, here is the recipe I try to stick to: doing one thing for the child, one thing for the house and one thing for myself each day helps me not to feel guilty or tired in the evening.
Apr 26, 2011 @ 06:22:18
Thanks Olga. That sounds like good advice, except that one thing seems to always lead to multiple things.
Apr 27, 2011 @ 00:48:13
Yes, that is the most difficult part of it: to stop in time.