When Words are Wrong

A bird perched on the corner of my roof and did nothing but be a bird. I imagine she sat tasting the breeze and listening to the sounds of invisible bugs, pausing for a moment to enjoy nothingness  until the right sound called to her and she flew away.

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I envy her.

I opened to my Google home page where I always check the weather, look at a piece of art, perhaps read Calvin and Hobbes and yes, I admit, read my horoscope. Here’s what today’s said:

My Horoscope AstroSync
Pisces

Pisces

You may feel unsettled today because you know something is about to change. Your feelings are quite volatile now and you don’t know where they are leading you. Unfortunately, your attempts to suppress your needs could provoke you to unconsciously act out. Trying to control the situation by limiting your interactions with others will only make you feel lonely. Remember that you are a Fish and should know that it’s easier to swim with the currents instead of resisting the tide.

This one rang true.
I feel lost. I feel alone. And I feel like my words are wrong.
I wish I could have a birdbrain moment, where nothing mattered but the cool wind and the bugs and my ability to fly.
The pictures were all taken by my brother at different times. For more of his fabulous photography visit him at Thru My Eyes

19 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Tori Nelson
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 08:25:04

    Oh, Miss Thang. I am sorry you’re feeling this way. You are definitely not alone, though. You’ve got me in your corner!

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  2. Vixter2010
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 08:27:14

    I’m Pisces too!

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  3. Taochild
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 08:31:33

    Just sent you some pics as requested. Hope you find one that works for you 🙂

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  4. lifeintheboomerlane
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 08:41:31

    I think w all go through the down times like this. They pass. Thy really do.

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  5. Hilary Clark
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 08:55:45

    I’m sorry you’re feeling so down! Could any part of it be tied to feeling sick with your cold? No matter the reason, it will pass.

    In the meantime, maybe set aside a little time to have that birdbrain moment…close your eyes, let your mind float free, focus only on what you sense around you. Let go.

    If that doesn’t appeal, do what I do…go find a swing set, take a seat, push off, and fly.

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    • Lisa
      Apr 29, 2011 @ 09:34:31

      It is most definitely tied to feeling sick, but my feeling sick is also tied to my getting down (I was feeling depressed, so my defenses got lowered I’m sure). It’s a vicious circle. I wish I knew where to find a really good swing set.

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  6. CMSmith
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 09:15:22

    This will pass. All things do.

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  7. athursdayschild has a long way to go and much to be thankful for.
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 10:43:23

    I never check my horoscope, but I would definitely check the omen of the bird. I don’t know what that bird is. But I’m curious as to what it means.
    The other day two doves landed outside my window. I looked it up, and saw it as a very good omen.

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  8. TheIdiotSpeaketh
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 10:58:40

    Big hugs to ya Lisa! 🙂

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  9. Ed Williams
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 13:25:39

    Ah Lisa…
    I am a fellow Piscean. How ironic that my post this morning reflects the horoscope AND your feeling. Hang in there for feeling lost brings on our wonderful Picses discoveries!
    Ed

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  10. Ed Williams
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 13:46:04

    Hopefully in my case, one of the discoveries is a spell checker!

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  11. nrhatch
    Apr 29, 2011 @ 17:39:44

    Stop “wishing” for the moment (or a swingset) to appear and take Hillary’s advice:

    . . . set aside a little time to have that birdbrain moment…close your eyes, let your mind float free, focus only on what you sense around you. Let go.

    Along those lines, you might be interested in this article:

    I find myself using the word “wish” when I’ve decided I don’t like something the way it is, yet I’m not actually doing anything about it. There’s no real reason to declare my wishes. Whenever I start a sentence with “I just wish…” feel free to ignore me, I’m only wasting your time. My whiny face has probably made you tune out anyway.

    Not only is it useless for changing the circumstances, but it reinforces the myth to which I’ve momentarily fallen prey: that my happiness is dependent on my circumstances only and has nothing to do with my attitude. It’s a bitter little plea that life isn’t what I want it to be in this particular moment, and a dead giveaway that I’m not prepared to do anything about it right now.

    http://www.raptitude.com/2011/04/four-words-that-make-me-suspicious-of-myself-when-i-say-them/

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    • Lisa
      Apr 29, 2011 @ 17:54:00

      Thanks for the link, Nancy. And, to my defense, I did take a birdbrain moment today even without the swing. I seriously have yet to find a playground here that has a decent swing, because I have often taken flight on swings for moments of pure joy. So, while that wish was sort of about something I can’t change at the moment (my locations) it was honestly not lack of motivation. For some reason this town is anti-swing, even though they have a fabulous playground. 😉

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      • nrhatch
        Apr 29, 2011 @ 18:03:04

        Good for you! 😀

        David’s article is awesome ~ his whole blog is designed to make us better at being human. 🙂

        Much of our suffering is self-induced.
        How we relate to the issue IS the issue.

        Once we focus on changing ourselves, instead of waiting for our circumstances to change, the “down” moments are fewer and farther between.

        Good luck!

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  12. Heather Henry
    Apr 30, 2011 @ 22:29:05

    Wow, some very awesome comments and advice. You may feel alone, but I definitely don’t think you’re alone. There are a lot of people who truly care. You are blessed is what you are, with friends!

    Reply

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