Unusual Angles, A View from the Outside

Have you ever looked at a picture of yourself and said, “that can’t be me.”

I do it all the time. I rarely let people take pictures of me, because when they do I cannot see me in the pictures. It’s more than just the “fact” that the camera adds 10 lbs (if that’s even true), but that my image of myself is completely different from the images that come out in pictures. I do not see myself as others see me, or at least as the camera shows me.

Allow me give you some examples:

My first reaction to this shot was, "Who is that woman with the really curly, busy hair? Oh, wait . . . "

Wow, I have big hair!

Of course, there is the inevitable, "how did I get so fat?" thought. This one included, "never wear that again.""

It's not just recent pictures either. This is one of those, "Wow, I'm short" photos. I am always surprised at how short I actually am. I don't feel that short (except when I can't reach something)

When did I become so round?

Now, before you say this is just me being overly critical of myself or hating myself, it’s not that. Pictures of me RARELY seem like they are pictures of me. I see myself completely differently than the world sees me. Not in a positive or a negative way, just in a different way.

Of all the shots taken of me recently, there are only a few where I say, “Oh yeah, that’s how I see myself.”

What’s different about these ones? It’s not that they are more candid. I think what I see is my concentration and focus–that is how I see myself.

To me the most unusual angle is the one where I see what other people see, and cannot reconcile it with what I see looking from the inside out.

[Nancy, from Spirit Lights the Way suggested that I try to write a response to Β View From the Side’s, Weekend ThemeΒ . This is my attempt. What is your perspective on Unusual Angles?]

One more series of photos, as Sarah decided to give me a makeover after I made this post. Enjoy the results, and interpret as you will:

23 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. nrhatch
    Jun 25, 2011 @ 09:37:40

    Lisa ~ love your angle on angles. Glad you decided to play along. Sidey gives us wonderful themes to work with each week

    Also ~ I love the 2nd shot of you . . . your smile radiates relaxed joy and inner peace, and that blue shirt is the perfect color for you. πŸ˜€

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    • Lisa (Woman Wielding Words)
      Jun 25, 2011 @ 09:51:22

      I actually don’t mind that shot. I just have to do something about my hair, before it takes over the world. πŸ˜‰

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  2. jgavinallan
    Jun 25, 2011 @ 09:42:18

    Lisa:
    I think you look fine…At least people don’t say, “you disappear when you turn sideways.” Or…”no difference from front to back.” I think you look great—period!
    I love the pics of the future Academy Award winners…lovely
    Jaye…

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  4. Vix @ LittleMissEverything
    Jun 25, 2011 @ 10:30:37

    I definitely don’t think I’m photogenic either, bad photos are so depressing makes you think – that can’t really be me can it?! I always get a double chin in them 😦

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    • Lisa (Woman Wielding Words)
      Jun 25, 2011 @ 11:02:37

      In a way, though, I’m not really talking about being photogenic or not photogenic. Even in pictures of myself that I think are good, I still have a hard time seeing ME in them. It is a bizarre phenomenon where my inner perception of myself simply does not correspond with the outer.

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  5. Jade
    Jun 25, 2011 @ 16:03:23

    I truly understand and relate to this entry, Ms Lisa! I always see myself different from the outside, and then when I look at a picture that someone snaps of me, I’m always taken aback at how contrasting my mental view of myself is compared to what others see. From these pictures, I can easily see that you have an amazing smile, Ms Lisa, as well as wonderful company! Those kids are so lucky to have you! I thoroughly enjoyed this post ^^.

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  6. Heather Henry
    Jun 25, 2011 @ 21:18:12

    I can so totally relate to this. I have a hard time taking myself seriously, so I don’t like pictures of me when I’m not smiling. I also know what you mean about being short.
    I think you look great in these pictures. But I really understand how you feel. You have a very beautiful smile.
    I’m sorry I haven’t gotten back to you. I’ve been so darn busy with projects, but I really do want to have lunch. I’m hoping it can happen within the next week. Let me know good times for you! πŸ™‚

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    • Lisa (Woman Wielding Words)
      Jun 25, 2011 @ 21:41:52

      I usually even dislike my smiling pictures, as they often involve too many chins. The one Sarah took today was actually nice, which is why I turned it into my Facebook profile. πŸ˜€

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  7. viewfromtheside
    Jun 26, 2011 @ 04:08:57

    great one, we so often don’t see what the camera somehow finds, yet now and then it is spot on!

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  8. rawmultimedia
    Jun 26, 2011 @ 09:47:54

    lots of awesome photos…lol I love it…I felt like I was there. πŸ™‚
    richardo

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  9. thepetalpusher
    Jun 26, 2011 @ 18:09:24

    When I look at photos of myself, Lisa, I have to ask: Who is that? I take awful photos–especially when I am asked to do so. The only ones that comes out halfway decent are candid shots and even then . . . Listen–you have one awesome smile that must light up a room!

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    • Lisa (Woman Wielding Words)
      Jun 26, 2011 @ 18:39:36

      Thanks Terry. I hate smiling for the camera though. It always looks/feels so fake. The only good shots of my smile come when I don’t know the camera is there.

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  10. jfb57
    Jun 27, 2011 @ 04:50:29

    I’m so glad it’s not only me! I never look like I feel in photos so I don’t like having them taken. I wonder if it is the same process as when you look in a mirror everything seems ‘normal, but when you see someone else in a mirror there is something not quite right. What do you think?

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    • Lisa (Woman Wielding Words)
      Jun 27, 2011 @ 07:06:41

      Hmmm, I never thought about that. I’ll have to look more closely at a mirror with someone else in it.

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  11. Taochild
    Jun 27, 2011 @ 17:33:40

    We never recognize ourselves on tape either. Is it any wonder our visual perception of ourselves also differs? Seems weh have to all learn to look beyond what the senses feed us and just see the me that is me πŸ™‚

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  12. Christine Grote
    Jun 27, 2011 @ 19:50:26

    I feel the same way about my pictures.

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