Dreaming as an Adult Child

When I was little it was so easy to dream big. I could say “I want to be a ______” and believe that anything was indeed possible.

What did I want to be? My dreams and aspirations changed on a daily basis, sometimes, but there were definite common themes and connections

  • I wanted to be a famous author.  I wanted to save my family with my words, like Jo in Little Women or be invited to read and speak to others like Anne in Anne of Green Gables.
  • I wanted to be a director of plays and musicals.
  • I wanted to be an actress on Broadway or in the movies.
  • I wanted to be a journalist, traveling the world and helping make it a better place.
  • I wanted to be a doctor or some kind of missionary, saving lives in poverty-stricken countries.
  • I wanted to be a psychologist.
  • I wanted to be a geologist.
  • I wanted to be a marine biologist.
  • I wanted to be President of the United States
  • I wanted to be someone invited to teach in universities and colleges around the world.
  • I wanted to be a Smith College Medal Winner.
  • I wanted to be a world traveler, and to have homes all over the world.
  • I wanted to be a singer, either the leader of a rock band or a soloist.

Now, some of those dreams were totally unrealistic. Some of them may have been real at the time, but I have no desire now. I definitely have NO DESIRE to be the President of the United States anymore. As for the science goals, I’m still fascinated but had ran into a brick wall when it came to some of the upper level math and some of the other courses required.

Some of the dreams I’ve achieved, although perhaps not in the way I imagined.  Some of the dreams shifted and changed as I grew older. Some have simply faded away.

A couple of the dreams still live with me, but I find myself afraid to claim them out loud. I don’t know if I have simply become more fearful, or I am more aware of the challenges and difficulties that face the world of a dreamer.  Or maybe I cannot get past the disappointment of lost dreams, to feel the hopes of future dreams.

I don’t want to do that to myself anymore. I want to dream like a child again, and see the world as full of possibilities.  I am determined to dream big, and let those dreams unfold, in whatever form they take. The child in me still lives. The dreamer in me will never go away.

I am a dreamer, and I intend to dream big!

“Come to the edge, he said. They said:
We are afraid. Come to the edge, he
said. They came. He pushed them,
And they flew…”
– Guillaume Apollinaire 

16 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. thelifeofjamie
    Jul 03, 2012 @ 11:11:59

    never let go of your dreams!

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  2. jesterqueen (@jesterqueen)
    Jul 03, 2012 @ 13:35:57

    Somewhere along the line, “I want to be an author when I grow up” stopped being my dream and started being what I do. I don’t even get paid yet, and it’s what I do to live.

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  3. thepetalpusher
    Jul 03, 2012 @ 18:44:44

    Like a bolt out of the blue
    Fate steps in and sees you through
    When you wish upon a star
    Your dreams come true

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  4. newsofthetimes
    Jul 04, 2012 @ 17:56:18

    I love this and can completely relate. You should read the Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. It is about just this and is one of my favorite books. Never stop believing that dreams can come true!

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  5. Kathryn McCullough
    Jul 04, 2012 @ 21:26:59

    I’m with you when it comes to dreaming, my friend. Continue to dream big.

    (Sorry to have been away all week. Tomorrow’s post should explain my absence. I’ve missed reading you, dear Lisa.)

    Hugs,
    Kathy

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    • Lisa Wields Words
      Jul 05, 2012 @ 11:08:13

      I’m afraid of dreaming, but I’m more afraid of not having any more dreams.

      I look forward to reading about your crazy week. I haven’t been reading a lot lately (intermittent access) but I will look for yours.

      Lisa

      Reply

  6. Andra Watkins
    Jul 05, 2012 @ 12:47:10

    Dreams do come true if we dare to have them. 🙂

    Reply

  7. Kathy
    Jul 05, 2012 @ 20:21:33

    Thank you for introducing us to the child in you. She is very sweet and oh she dreams so big. Letting go of our fears is no small thing.

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  8. 4amWriter
    Jul 08, 2012 @ 06:09:17

    This reminds me of wish list I wrote when I was a teen, and the top wish was to be an author. Some of the other wishes were ridiculous (like wanting to marry Tom Cruise, lol). But I like to know that even way back then I wanted to be an author and that I still want it. I think that means it’s a real wish.

    Good luck making some of yours come true, too.

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    • Lisa Wields Words
      Jul 08, 2012 @ 11:01:09

      I’m so glad you DIDN’T marry Tom Cruise. I know I wanted to be an author then too, but I pushed it away out of fear or something. It is slowly moving its way to the top of the list again.

      Reply

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