Writing, Rejection, and Writing Again

Why do I write?

Perhaps a bigger question is, why do I write this blog? I mean, I am the first to admit that this is a blog about nothing. I don’t reflect on cutting news of the day, or analyze movies, or critique books. I simply write what I’m thinking whenever I get the urge to write. I have a few self-promotional things up here, like an excerpt from Giving Up the Ghosts but mainly this is about putting words on a page, and hoping that somebody reads them.

As a matter of fact, I apologize to anyone who is reading this right now, as I am rambling on about nothing. But it is a nothing that I am continually thinking about at the moment.

So maybe that is why I write, in the hopes that someone will read my words. I’m back on the drawing board as far as the book is concerned. I still haven’t found it a home. I know, there are millions of people out there trying to get their books published. Or at least thousands. What makes me think mine is so special. Well, I read a lot of young adult fiction that I know is weaker than mine. My story is good. My writing is strong. And yet . . . I don’t know what the next step is.

So why do I write? I noticed recently that my old entry called On Writing in a Public Forum has moved up in the ranks of my most popular blogs. This suggests that people really wonder why we blog: that blogging has become something significant in society. Facebook, and other social networking sites have become significant too. But why? I wonder if we are constantly looking for connections with others, and one of the strongest ways we connect is through words.

So I write to connect. I write to reach out. I write to express. I write despite rejection. I write to find a home.

I guess that’s why I write.

Referring to Referrers

 

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I admit it, I am addicted to looking at my blog stats. Even though I have not been writing regularly, I can’t resist checking in to see if anyone has visited my blog recently. Face it, the purpose of blogging is to put your thoughts and ideas out there and hope that somebody reads them. I know that I haven’t written anything earth-shattering, but it is nice to know that some people actually are interested in hat I have to say.

But today it got me thinking about how my blog is getting out there. I clicked on the links to the referrers (the sights that sent others to my blog). Now, sometimes I recognize them (like the link to my website–woo hoo someone is looking at that). A couple of referrers are mysterious and some are links to advertising. The mysterious ones are what disturb me. For example, today there is a link to something that ends with “death-to-America”. Scary, huh? I am the first to admit that I question some things about American society, but that is also my right as a citizen. Most of what aggravates me are the prejudices and inconsistencies that people promote as a right of freedom, and the lack of understanding that many in our country have for the troubles in the world. Our arrogance frustrates me. But that doesn’t mean I hate democracy or anything like that. So why would my blog be linked to something like that. I would hate to think that my words are being used by some kind of terrorist organization to further a sickening cause. Or maybe I represent the reasons people hate America.

I find it creepy, like big brother is watching me.

So let me put this out clearly, I am pretty much a pacifist, but I will fight for the people and things I love. I have strong opinions and I am willing to share them, but I will not be used as a tool to promote hate!  I hope people read my blog, and I hope that people will respond in comments, but I will not be used as some kind of mysterious tool to promote negativity.

I don’t know if any of this makes sense, but I figured I should write something as it is a disturbing question. I don’t think many of us are aware about the complexity that comes with life on the web. We write, we blog, we create, we vent . . . but we don’t really know where our words go. The complexity of the modern world leads to any number of questions. Please, help me anser them: Who are we touching? What is being learned and discovered? What images are being created in readers minds? How do people find blogs? What makes you read one blog versus another? Why do we write?

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