Word Chaos

The Versatile Blogger Award (Photo credit: nhighberg)

First I must thank Rossandra White for nominating me for another Versatile Blogger Award yesterday. I am not going to do it justice because:

• I am a rebel (in my own mind) who doesn’t want to follow rules.
• I have written about this award here and here and here.
• I can’t think of seven random facts about myself that I haven’t already written about or that anyone would find remotely interesting.
• I love too many bloggers and find so much versatility in so many places I cannot pick 15. I think any of the people who I visit on a regular basis are incredibly talented. That’s what keeps me coming back, at first, and then those relationships have grown into (dare I say) friendships. I am just honored to be part of this amazingly versatile community.

So instead of passing on the award, I’m sending you all some flowers and a virtual hug.

Photo taken at the Botanical Gardens at Smith College

But now for the real words that want to be heard today:

WORD CHAOS

Sometimes words suffocate
crowding into my mind
in the moment between sleep
and awake
where dream fragments
fight for attention with
the to do list of the day.

Words fill my brain
streaming sentences written
across the sky or
spoken in silent voices
tempting me with images and possibilities
but then dancing away
on hummingbird wings
the speeding buzz
of ideas never to be caught.

I yearn for silence
but then the loneliness fills the void
and doubts creep in.
“Who are you without words?”
a voiceless whisper asks.
“Take away your thoughts,
your brain, your intelligence,
and you will find an empty shell.”

But I am not empty.
Words cannot control me.
Loneliness cannot define me.
Self-doubt cannot destroy me.
Because though words do have power,
I have power over words.